Time Apart

I know that this will be tough for me. Even though I miraculously have a full schedule, I will miss him with all my heart. This morning I woke up to a text from him; <3. So simple, yet it made my day. Later on in the afternoon he sent a message saying how this Sunday's Giants' game will be the first one we haven't watched together. It felt nice to know he will miss the time we have set aside to spend with each other. I know, it is just a weekend that we will be spending apart. It will be almost 2 weeks, 10 days to be exact, that we won't see each other though. I probably won't be able to sleep well. Tossing and turning since my body some how know's that Friday to Sunday night I should be laying next to him. I will be ready to jump into his arms when I do. I know how much he means to me though. I am no longer in love with him. Remember being "in" love can mean you can be "out" of it too, if that makes sense. A few nights ago we had a major fight. I realized then that I love him. The love that you have for a person in your family, the kind that just doesn't go away. No matter what silly things they do, no matter how much you want to smack them into another race. Love like, I would do anything to see him happy. Love like, a friend I known since I was 5 years old, they moved away then came back and I still love them, love. Love that makes me want to be there during the roughest times of his life and see him through it. Not in love, like the days are bright and sunny always. Not in love, in love is like lust to me. Infatuation if you will. Do you get what I mean? Ugh.