Engaged

My younger sister (step) posted on facebook today a picture of her with an engagement ring on and it said, “say word!”. So, I started panicking. I couldn’t believe that she was engaged. My mind was racing. I was supposed to be the first to get married since I am the oldest right? I started screaming no!!!!!!!! inside and out. I just was upset. Not to mention she took a whole 10 minutes to reply to my messages asking is it true. When she replied, “say word, I only paid $5.50 for that at target” I was so relieved. I know it sounds bad but I would have been so jealous. I have been flirting with the idea of a future with *Scott. Things are getting very serious with us and I would hate for it to all be a waste of time. I really feel a horrible that I felt that way for a split second. That “why wasn’t it me” feeling. One day it will and it will not be announced over facebook.