As I sat with my
family for dinner at Red Robin’s the talk about marriage came up. My mother is
a true believer that I shouldn’t waste years of my life with a man who has no
intention on marrying me. I also agree with this. So, for the 4th of
July she planned on talking with *Scott who was planning on joining us. I
agreed that maybe they should ask those questions of him since I am curious
myself. So here we are, 4th of July headed to my family bbq at
Swartzwood State Park in Jersey. Well, at least we thought. By the time we
arrived to the park at 11:30 am the state police had closed it off. So *Scott,
myself, my sister and her friend *Jess went to *Jess’s mom’s home near by.
There we set up our own little bbq. I told *Scott that he got out of the
questioning. He was shocked I didn’t tell him that he was going to be
questioned. My sister decided to take the opportunity to ask him, “So, what
areeee your plans with my sister?”. To my embarrassment he sat there and made a
face. My heart sank. He couldn’t come up with anything to say to my sister, I
am glad he wasn’t around my family. I put that to the back of my mind until we
were headed back to NYC. I asked him the same question as my sister did. Again
he couldn’t answer. He then asked why would my mom ask that kind of question.
“She wants me to get married in the next two years” I replied. He began
laughing at the notion of getting married in two years. Again my heart sank
into my chest realizing that I may be wasting my time with him. Another few
years of my life wasted. I don’t know what to do. It is as if I can never have
a serious conversation with him. I did everything I can but, after hearing that
I just lost all energy and will. I don’t want to tell him I love him anymore. I
have been waiting for the perfect time to do it. I just can’t now. Am I being
over dramatic? Not this time. Not when the person you have spent 2 years of
your life with can not put it words how they feel about you nor could they even
come up with a good enough lie to even attempt to put your heart at ease in the
attempt to buy time. Thoughts?
Thursday, July 4, 2013
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