I had a scary
dream last night. I was pregnant at my baby shower. It could remember having so
much fun with my family. *Scott’s family had been showing up on CPT (colored
people time). I saw him at the table with my family looking uncomfortable but I
didn’t pay it any attention. I walked around entertaining the guests and having
fun until I made my rounds back to where he was sitting and I couldn’t find him
anywhere. I began to panic when I asked my family had they seen him and they
didn’t remember him even getting up. When his family began to arrive I got
questioned by his eldest aunt on his where abouts. She had invited me to a big
family party in south jersey and I promised I would go. I began to search the
party looking for him feeling a mix of angry and sad. I found my sister and she
hadn’t seen him either. On my way back to the other side of the party I fell in
a hole or ditch and my sister had to help me out. When I finally found *Scott I
told him I needed to talk to him. However, he was so entertained by his phone
and his cousin that he told me to wait. Again I asked him to talk and he told
me to wait again. I asked him
again clenching my teeth in order to hold back and he responded similarly and
got up. I got so angry my water broke. I knew it wasn’t a good thing because I
didn’t have a large belly that indicated I was going to give birth soon. So I
began crying and I looked under my dress, which happened to be the cream
flowing dress Kim K and Kourtney had shared, and saw a dangling bloody baby
arm. I couldn’t take anymore and I woke up. I told *Scott about my dream and he
laughed. I didn’t think it was funny at all and I began to cry. I feel like
dreams like this mean much more than something on the surface. What if it is a symbol
of something apart of him and me is dying. What if the love is dying?
Sunday, April 7, 2013
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To me, your dream sounds like you are insecure about where you stand in your relationship with him. It sounds like you want something concrete from him or for him to match his words with actions. I don't know him at all, so I'm not saying he doesn't do these things. Just interpreting the dream.
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