Wednesday, May 8, 2013

How to Trust Your Boyfriend?


How much time apart is too much time apart? This week will be the third week of being apart from *Scott. Part of me wonders if I could continue to go without seeing him. The other part misses him. My feelings right now are only amplified by the fact that he added a new facebook friend. Yes, facebook the place where relationships die. Currently, it is 3:30 in the morning and he added her around 2:30 am. I sent him a text around 1:30 am. No reply. How does that look good on is part. The question I have is how are you making these new female friends and none of them a mutual to any of the billion friends you have on facebook. That is questionable to me. Of course on the same night another female leaves a message on his page 

primping to my awesome playlist, sippin on raspberry vodka +preping to dance my little heart out!  *Scott, you better make it (:

Again, no mutual friends. So what am I to think? I mean I am no being extra or anything but, if I were to have this happen to me, he would be bitching beyond belief. I want to trust him, I really do. 
So I did additional investigation and saw that this friend that posted the message was not recently added but a long time friend and the new friend is pretty ugly so I know that he wasn't trying to talk to her. I did confront him about my feelings and I am fully aware that I am insecure at times but how can I not be. He is 1,000 miles away partying and I don't know what he is doing. He could say the same for me if he knew that I went out with all guys on the same night. Well, sort of. A girl came for a few minutes but she left and I hung out with my friends for a few hours smoking hookah and talking about art and our show Vampz!. I feel as though I need to have a heart to heart with him in regards to boundaries and the type of friendships we have outside of our relationship. 
I wish that he lets me know he is going out with a couple of friends instead of me seeing things online and taking it another way. That would take the edge off. I am curious if he is ok with me hanging out with my male friends and making new ones. 
Trust in a relationship is serious work and some days I am fully trusting but other days I am not fully confident in my ability to continuously make him happy. I am working on it.

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